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  1. Feeling some kinda way
    In a Blues for Mr. Charlie
    Or Dutchman kinda way
    When you're trying
    To not kill somebody -
    Anybodies
    Because of something said
    So you paint the sky, sculpt,
    Sing or blow a sax until it cries
    Hurt into memory

    I was in the company of aquaintances and got eyeball deep in my feelings.
    "Principal?"
    A one word question seared my soul. I had not said I had lines. I didn't even call it acting. I said I had spent a day walking around a cemetary and had used my car on a TV shoot.

    Being an extra in a movie or TV show is a payday for me. I'd prefer to have lines and featured screen time, but I'm an extra by circumstance not choice. I'm background and grateful for a check.

    "Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt." 

    Astrology and phases of the moon aside, I cursed and spewed witty cutting retorts back at him,
    in my mind, for days. Stung even more because it seemed no one else at the table even noticed.

    "Principle?" The question came from a person for whom no audition is necessary. His roles, he stated several times, are always a direct call from casting.

    I'll admit, earlier that day, I felt some kind of way when TMZ reported the insolent 13 year old 
    "Cash Me Outside" girl
     is juggling offers from 7 (seven!!!) different production companies. 

    Planets, stars or nah, being asked if I was a principle, on what was a background payday, just put me all up in my feelings.

    "I'm an extra on the TV
    If you blink slow you won't see me
    I add atmosphere, my voice you won't hear
    I don't make a sound
    I'm background.
    I knew making movies wasn't easy
    But being an extra makes my stomach queasy.
    Give me the chance to show some panache
    Oh you want me to sit and be a silent bit?
    I've studied Chekov, Chayefsky, Euripides
    Bullins, Baraka, Aristophanes.
    Oh how I've cried for just a few lines
    Oh how I pray for just one word to say, but
    I'm an extra on the TV
    If you blink slow you won't see me
    I add atmosphere, my voice you won't hear
    I don't make a sound I'm background."

    I wrote I'm An Extra several decades ago. It's nobody's fault that it still rings true.
    I'm alright now. I talked myself off a ledge. I live to be an extra another day.
    In fact tomorrow, on Power, me and my car will be background.

    Thank you for your eyes on this page. Your support is appreciated. BTW, I"m seeking representation.

    You are invited to laugh at my foibles ...

    Sunday March 5th  - 7 PM Brooklyn Commons
    388 Atlantic Ave. Brooklyn NY 11217


    Thursday March 9th - 8 PM Jimmy's 43
    43 East &th St. NYC 10003
    Laughing Liberally With Scott Blakeman


    Friday March 10th - 6 PM Flo Empire Radio
    Big Talk & Brewskis With Maryssa Smith


    Sunday March 19th - Don't Tell Mama
    343 West 46th St. NYC 10036
    Groovin On a Sunday


    Thursday March 23rd - 7 PM Brooklyn Museum
    200 Eastern Parkway Brooklyn NY 11238
    Brooklyn Comedy Marathon: 
    Fierce, Funny & Feminist


    When I do stand-up folks laugh, when I tell true life stories folks listen and when I direct theater it's interesting. Follow me on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and sometimes Periscope.
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  2. 2 comments:

    1. Rhonda, I'm always impressed by your bookings without representation. That one at the Brooklyn Museum sounds wonderful to me.

    2. Sharon Renay said...

      You're the shiniest background there is. The Best Is Yet To Come. :-) ♡

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