Hey folks. Thanks for clicking and reading. It's much appreciated. This is a reminder that on Saturday night,
6/14, at 9pm, I’ll be performing with all these funny people:
and you can get your $10 ticket in advance (instead of $15 at
the door) here:Advance Tickets
It’s always a good show.I enjoy watching it in addition to being in
it.Pangea
has a $20 food/drink minimum.I’m told
the food is dee-lish!
EAT DRINK LAUGH
(a Paul
Hallasy production)
…
Then … on Friday, 6/20, at 8pm, The Almost Summer Comedy Show awaits
you at The Artist, 249 City Island
Avenue.Only $15 and NO minimum.You may even BYOB.The welcoming staff will provide glasses,
ice, corkscrew if needed.There is a
menu available of light fare and delicious desserts which is tempting but not
required.Desserts are from Jenny's Sweets. The comedy is by these
funny people.
For reservations, use this link. Advance tickets Otherwise, it will be added to your bill and
you can pay there.What a nice way to
spend a June evening.Laughter is
guaranteed.
Okay, so I
completely forgot to post last week. Sometimes I forget what day of the week it
is. I work many jobs, and often on the weekends, and I don’t have a 9 to 5
office job, so I will completely lose track of the days, especially lately.
That is me.
I am usually a
night person. My mind tends to wake up around 10 p.m., and I want to get
dressed up and go somewhere. I used to go to the fabled Elaine’s after
midnight, because my fellow night-owls congregated there, and staying up until
3 or 4 a.m. and then going to the diner for corned beef hash and eggs was a
normal routine. Now Elaine’s is no longer, and I now live in Bushwick, and I am
getting restless and anxious at night. I can’t wander the neighborhood, as I
used to do when I lived on Madison Avenue on the upper east side of Manhattan.
I can’t go to my 24-hour deli and get a snack and sit on the bench outside my
building smoking and drinking coffee as I watch the sky get lighter and the
hospital folk walk to work. My new
neighborhood is dark and deserted of nightfolk and not a safe place to wander
aimlessly.
Last night,
after an exhausting shift of tending bar, I felt the pressures building again –
I want to go do something fun, talk to somebody, but where? I should save
money. I am losing out on life. Stupid money. Stupid career choices. I hate
this shit. – all the dark thoughts. I contemplated taking a break from
performing comedy. I thought of leaving New York. I wondered if I should just find a fucking
office job with benefits and two weeks paid vacation and have some financial
stability. This thought makes me even darker.
I get home to my
rented room, and my roomies are already in bed, though it is not yet 11:30 p.m.
I resist the urge to call or text the guy I’ve been seeing (I need to stop
calling him My Guy – he is not My Guy. If I am not His Girl, he cannot be My
Guy.) I want to have somebody to talk to before I go to bed. Someone to laugh
with.
I am built for
performing. Theater people, comics – we are night folk. We thrive on the
community of weirdos and misfits and Charlie-in-the-Boxes so we have decided to
forgo security and 401K accounts and “normal” lives. It’s not the applause and
laughter that we crave – it’s our fellow weirdos. When it is midnight and I am
sitting on my bed, I cannot bear the thought of turning off the light and going
to sleep. Alone. With my thoughts. I have been this way my whole life. As a
small child, I’d get out of bed and snuggle next to my mom and watch Johnny
Carson and Dick Cavett and Tom Snyder and eat Ritz crackers with tuna salad out
of a big bowl. Wide awake. Getting up early - for school, for college classes,
for a 9 to 5 job – does not sit well with me.
It’s been
troublesome to have this late-night anxiety settling in. In my old apartment, I
could turn on the TV, surf the net, and rearrange my shit. Now I don’t have a
TV, the internet is boring me, and I am devouring books, but my stomach is in
knots and my brain is racing. I cannot wait for it to be light outside. I am a
vampire, but the light of day changes me into a calmer person. I regain hope,
feel like things will work out, and stop the self-flagellation. But it is dark
outside as I write this. That weird nausea is tickling my stomach once again.
I have an offer
to do a set this Friday. I should just
do it, despite this urge to stop for a while.
I don’t know if I am funny anymore. That’s usually when my best sets
occur. When I am in the darkest of places, alone, flailing, sick inside – I can
climb on that little stage and grab the mic and something comes out of me that
I wasn't planning. It just happens. It might be the train ride to the venue,
the text I just received, the way a beer was served to me right before I walk
into the room. It might happen as I walk up to the stage – a sound, a thought,
a new audience member entering the darkness to sit and watch the freak show.
We few, we happy
few. I smoked all my ciggies and it's past midnight. I may just have to go for a stroll here in my deserted neighborhood.
